1 Month

When we first started the adoption (almost 2 years ago now) we were told it would take 2 weeks in country to bring our child home.  Well, last spring Rwanda changed a few rules that required families to sign a paper that was required for court, so things changed and families travels were now 3 weeks long.  Well things changed again late this past summer and families are now required to go to Kenya for visas instead of Ethiopia.  Things take a few days longer in Kenya making ones travels now 3 1/2 weeks.  When you factor in the extra days of just getting to Africa and back home again, this means we will be gone for a total of 1 month.

The reality of this has just hit me and I'm feeling extremely overwhelmed.  The fact that we are going to be gone for 1 month is not what bothers me.  I'm totally excited to spend time in our son's birth country as well as Kenya.  This is an experience of a lifetime and I'm so excited to see where God leads us next.  This will also be a great time for Luke and I to just get to know our son before we add his busy siblings to the mix.  The down side is that we will be leaving Kristin & Kade for 1 month.  They are super excited to be staying at Grandpa & Grandma's for this long, it's like a dream come true for them.  I'm confident that they will be totally fine.  They are in great hands and I trust my parents to care for them more than anyone else in the world.  The problem is me (I have tears as I write this).  We have never left them for more than 4/5 days, so this is a long time.  

I find myself being reminded by God that these beautiful children (all 3 of them) are our gift from God.  So really I need to trust Him and leave them in His hands.  Which is hard to do when you spend 24/7 with your kids.  Please pray that I have peace about this soon!!!