You've Got Mail....Or Not

Checking my email is usually a daily task I look forward too.  Things have constantly been moving in Rwanda and it's so exciting to see what's happening next.  Well lately (especially today), I have not felt the same about checking my email.  Instead it has become more of a dreaded task.  Instead of checking it first thing in the morning like I used to, I wait until the afternoon, partially out of fear.  Why fear?  Well, this is what happens: I go to my email and have excitement thinking today might be the day we hear something from Rwanda.  After opening my email, all the excitement washes away and turns into great disappointment.  I feel like it takes me a couple hours to recover from this emotional roller coaster.  Maybe I should take a break from checking my email?  I obviously need to trust God's timing more, I thought I was, but this definitely says otherwise.